So do you remember when I posted here about how I was making one pink and one blue "coin collecting" quilts in a secret hope to have twins that were a boy and a girl. Well on Tuesday morning I had my doctor's appointment and found out that things weren't going as I had hoped. In fact, they were pretty horrible. An ultrasound confirmed that the one child in me no longer had a heart beat. It had stopped beating about 2 weeks earlier. This was my first miscarriage and it pretty much crushed me.
I spent the next few days wandering around the house not really being able to do much. (Thanks again to all the family and friends that were there to support me through those days.) I wandered into my sewing room several times thinking that quilting always makes me happy. But each time that I picked up my little coin collecting quilt to start working I would get weepy thinking about that little wee one we lost. So then I would walk back out again.
Then on Friday, a good friend brought me a care package that had an adorable charm pack in it to lift my spirits. I love fabric and decided that I would give it another shot! So on Saturday morning I got up and grabbed that charm pack and then I cut it up, pieced it together, and quilted it. At that point I was feeling really good and was in a groove so I kept going. I was in my element and sewing was brining me solace.
I finished piecing the blue coin collecting quilt. And then I quilted both the pink and blue quilt. I tried a new quilt pattern on each. The blue one is done in stars and loops and the pink one is done in flowers and vines. I am super happy with how they turned out.
This afternoon I binded the three quilts and decided that since I no longer currently had a need for them to list them in my etsy shop. I am hoping that they will be perfect for someone whose dream is coming true :)
So with all that said, I am doing okay. I will always love that little one we lost and I am still sad and weepy from time to time, but I have peace through it all. I know that my Father in Heaven is watching over me and that he loves me. I am so grateful for my many friends and family who continue to care for me and give me hugs when I am sad. Things aren't going to happen as we hoped but that doesn't mean that things won't still happen. The dream has just changed.
So without further ado, here are some pictures of my quilt marathon weekend. Happy Quilting!
I love you Melissa....The quilts are amazing! Wow!ReplyDelete
These turned out so lovely!! I'm with Bonnie, I love you too! :)ReplyDelete
I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I know just what you are feeling. I went through a miscarriage in June.ReplyDelete
Sorry to hear your sad news. The quilts are all beautiful.ReplyDelete
I am so sorry ; not sure what to say for comfort . Your quilts are awesome . God bless you and your family .ReplyDelete
You are in my prayers, Melissa; He knows and He cares. (And the quilts are just awesome!)ReplyDelete
I'm so sorry Melissa! :( that is heartbreaking indeed.ReplyDelete
Your quilts are so beautiful.
I hope you're doing better -- may you be filled with health and life and peace...
I am very sorry for your loss! There are no words I can say to make you feel better, but I know how heartbreaking losing a baby can be (I have lost 6 of 8 pregnancies). When my daughter was stillborn, I was 80-90% done with her quilt, but I was so sad that I hid it away and it took me almost 4 years to be brave enough to dig it out and finish it. It was so therapeutic and I am very glad that I finally finished it. You were brave to finish yours so soon after your tragedy. My thoughts are with you and if you need to chat please feel free to email me.ReplyDelete
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I'm so sorry for your loss.ReplyDelete
The quilts are beautiful and I'm so glad that you found solace in sewing. What a beautiful story.
Melissa, I am so sorry for you loss. I went through it three times myself, and my daughter suffered a miscarriage a year ago. It is a hard, hard thing.ReplyDelete
I'm glad you were able to find comfort in your fabrics, and make such lovely quilts. Keeping your hands busy when you are sad is a good thing.
Glad you have a kind supportive family, and of course, Heavenly Father will always be there for you. But you knew that already!
These quilts are beautiful. I love how you were able to focus your energy at such a sad time to produce three amazing and wonderful quilts!ReplyDelete
I saw your post on Stash Manicure which brought me to your blog. I love all 3 of your quilts. So sorry about your baby.ReplyDelete
I too have hopped over from Stash Manicure and am so sorry to read of your miscarriage... beautiful quilts and I hope they went to someone who truly appreciated the love that went into them.ReplyDelete
Love the quilt pattern - I'd downloaded it a few days ago, so lovely to visit its source! Here's to a fulfilling and happy 2011!