So do you remember when I posted here about how I was making one pink and one blue "coin collecting" quilts in a secret hope to have twins that were a boy and a girl. Well on Tuesday morning I had my doctor's appointment and found out that things weren't going as I had hoped. In fact, they were pretty horrible. An ultrasound confirmed that the one child in me no longer had a heart beat. It had stopped beating about 2 weeks earlier. This was my first miscarriage and it pretty much crushed me.
I spent the next few days wandering around the house not really being able to do much. (Thanks again to all the family and friends that were there to support me through those days.) I wandered into my sewing room several times thinking that quilting always makes me happy. But each time that I picked up my little coin collecting quilt to start working I would get weepy thinking about that little wee one we lost. So then I would walk back out again.
Then on Friday, a good friend brought me a care package that had an adorable charm pack in it to lift my spirits. I love fabric and decided that I would give it another shot! So on Saturday morning I got up and grabbed that charm pack and then I cut it up, pieced it together, and quilted it. At that point I was feeling really good and was in a groove so I kept going. I was in my element and sewing was brining me solace.
I finished piecing the blue coin collecting quilt. And then I quilted both the pink and blue quilt. I tried a new quilt pattern on each. The blue one is done in stars and loops and the pink one is done in flowers and vines. I am super happy with how they turned out.
This afternoon I binded the three quilts and decided that since I no longer currently had a need for them to list them in my etsy shop. I am hoping that they will be perfect for someone whose dream is coming true :)
So with all that said, I am doing okay. I will always love that little one we lost and I am still sad and weepy from time to time, but I have peace through it all. I know that my Father in Heaven is watching over me and that he loves me. I am so grateful for my many friends and family who continue to care for me and give me hugs when I am sad. Things aren't going to happen as we hoped but that doesn't mean that things won't still happen. The dream has just changed.
So without further ado, here are some pictures of my quilt marathon weekend. Happy Quilting!